I think deep down many of us are very weary of people who don’t work out, love that we lose. We want to find our “person”, and just…live happily ever after already! Yet when we look at the examples of love and companionship around us, we’re left feeling something short of assurance.
I’m a month and a half into my challenge, and I’ve got a lot to say. You can find my initial post about this challenge here and last week’s update here. Without further ado, let’s get into it.
Now last week I explained how indoctrinated I was with shame for my body and for self-expression in terms of my wardrobe and moving my body in terms of dance. If you haven’t read that post yet, I’d encourage you to do so before reading this one. Just click here to open it in a new tab. It got to such a fever pitch that I became unable to feed myself sufficiently and avoided looking beautiful out of fear and shame, but I had started to try to pull out of this miserable place, for my own good. And this is where we pick up today. I had started recovery from my eating disorder, and therapy to try to help me make new mental connections and progress toward my goal of self-acceptance.
So I’ve reached the end of the fifth week in battling my fears. If you want to go back and read the initial challenge, click here. And if you missed last week’s update, click here.
When I was a little girl, I began to dance. Well, maybe it was just more like swaying, jumping, and twirling around. But I loved how it felt. It wasn’t really in conjunction with any music, but I just loved to move my body in expressive ways. It felt, to me, magical. But I definitely didn’t stay that way forever.
Well hello there! I’m incredulous, but I’ve just finished the fourth week of my fear challenge and I can’t believe it has been one month already! I feel like nothing has changed and yet everything has at the same time. If you’re not familiar with my fear challenge, you can start by reading this post. And if you’re not up to date with last week’s installment, click here. Now let’s get into it!
Just being alive, we all have some form of relationships. We have friends and families and coworkers and people who know us from the internet. All these things are relationships, and to be honest, all these things can completely stink sometimes.
So as you may or may not know, I’ve been trying to overcome my fears in general, and this is my update for the third week. If you aren’t up to speed, you can find the first post about this here, or if you just missed last week’s update, you can find it here.
I know you love instant gratification, but it’s a trap!
I write this, coming to you from a place of caring. Not judging. I am not going to tell you how to live your life or what your priorities should be, because no one can determine that for you. All that being said though, there is a plague on our society today and I can’t let another day pass without addressing it.